sorry for the lack of updates.

reason is simple, MY LAPTOP'S SCREEN IS FINALLY DEAD.

i won't be blogging for quite sometime.

so miss me okay people :D

FUCK LIFE AND FUCK EVERYTHING.
i feel like running away from everything. i feel like running away from home. i don't even have the fucking mood for school anymore. and i dnt even think i have the mood for school tomorrow. how i wish i am a perfect guy with a perfect life.

i just feel like everything seems to be against me. i feel so useless. USELESS. im just a burden to your life. fuck love. fuck everything. maybe im not good when it comes to love afterall. maybe that explains why things dont always go the way i want it to be. everything seems to be coming and leaving. why? i feel like its all because of me. i feel like im the only one who is wrong.

nobody will understand how i feel.

i've never had the perfect childhood like some people does. maybe its due to my family background that makes me feel afraid and heartbreaking when i lose someone important in life. i have a fear of losing my loved ones. maybe that explains why i react this way.

Eyfa. thanks for being patient with me all this while. yeahhh. maybe it is true. u made me feel as if im the one who is always wrong. sorry if im not the one that ure looking for. sorry if im not the kind of guy who can make u feel happy. sorry for being sucha useless friend. and really really sorry if i've been irritating u when i asked for an answer. i just wanna know whether its a yes or a no. thats all im asking for. and yes. i guess u deserve someone way much better than me i should say. haish. im sorry if i raised my voice just now otp. i was really pissed off. cos ure really not making sense. i hope u're not gonna hate me after this. all i really wanted was for u to be happy. but when i look back, ure way much happier when ure not with me. thankyouu for being sucha wonderful friend to me all this while. although we often fought with each other recently, there are times when u actually puts a smile on my face. ure a great friend. yes you are. im sorry but i really cant take this pain anymore. Eyfa, ive never regretted knowing u. whenever the number 19 come across my mind, it will always remind me of you. once again thankyouu. ohhh and not to forget. deep down inside me, u will always be my bbyboy~


I LOVE YOU, BBYBOY (':

i need an answer from you. don't leave me struggling.
all i know now is that I Love You~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUYUL!
sorry tak dapat teman yuyul gi shopping the other day. its not that i dont want, but im schooling. sorry lagi okay ^^

lets move on to the chapter of yesterday (Friday).

didnt manage to wake up on time for my morning lesson which is from 10-12 but i did manage to attend my second lesson. at least gi skola okay. so its an improvement. LOL. fetch Eyfa from Sengkang since she wanna teman me in school. hehe. thankyouu bby. and den we hephep kejap. haha. ainkkkk. k bedek lah bodoh.

after school, teman her pulak back to her house, changed and went to adm to lepak. met Danish, Nizwan and Shahdan and off to dono where lah kan. naik car oi rounding rounding. hahaha. beh at last hantar Eyfa gi keje. but still. only mangae to send her as far as Bugis je due to ERP thingy. so yup. they make their way home while i send her from bugis till her workplace at Marina Square. sweet kan? tawuk. haha. MRT-ED home from city hall after that. and something cool terjadi! Erwin was a train behind me while Sashaa was one train ahead. hahaha! cool kan?! tak cool kau nye pasal uh. haha.

soccer-ed till 10 and off home (:

Specially for Eyfaaaaaaaaa,
i didnt get to spend much time with u just now. and although i felt a little dizzy and tired, i told myself that the least i can do is to send u to work. ikotkan hati mmg nak ddk diam je kat dalam kerete and let u gi keje alone. but something just can't stop me from getting myself out of that car and accompany u to work. and yes. its true that i care for you. i can't lie to the world. there's something about u that simply makes me feel loved and cared whenever im with u. i may say this over and over again but i just want u to know that i really do mean it when i say it...

I LOVE YOU & ONLY YOU

AstroBoy (:

Currently in school. AINKKKK! bedek je. im at home lah. haish. i skipped school 3 days in a row already. currently in my aunt's room watching my adik playing X-Box. its been a long time since we got our hands on the X-Box. hahaha. boring lah. selling the X-Box soon. buying X-Box 360! wheeeee. hopefully. LOL.

i was supposed to wake up at 9.45 but in the end. when i woke up just now, it was already 11. hahaha! so yeahh. skip school lah ape lagi. hehe. slept at 3 yesterday i guess? otp with bby till 12 and can't sleep right after that. chatted with Shrek while playing Runescape. haha. and your drawings, hahaha super nice.

i've yet to take my bath. jom. anyone nak mandi ngan aku? cepatlah.. shower pipe aku best bleh muat 2 orang nie. HAHAHA!

im still waiting for Eyfa's reply. idkw die tak reply since an hour ago. tsk D;

to who it may concern,
kalau kau betol kawan aku, kau takyah nak buat bende nie sume ah. bukannye aku tanak byr hutang kau. kau pikir aku nie ape? tepuk tgn tros duit klua pe? aku takleh take it ah sia ngan perangai kau. at least bersalaman tgn ah eh. nie takde. jumpe aku. mintak duit tros belah. eh thanks ah. SOT TAK SOT SGT AH BRUDDER! haha.

to th rest yg aku masih berhutang, i will pay as soon as i have the money aite.
seriously, hidop berhutang tak aman siol.

im proud to tell u guys that i skipped school again today. ERGH~
idkw. i simply got no mood for school these few days. homeworks homeworks homeworks. fark u. HOMEWORK HURT TREES LAH OKAY! waste paper waste money.

im still on my bed right now and yet to take my bath. LOL. lincah wei. sape brani cium ketiak aku? aku kasi $10. easy money oi. hahahaha!

will be meeting sweetheart at HG MALL later on. hehe. i miss her truckloads.
till here den. will update again soon. byeee~

*BANG*

attention all. i have something to share. its about yesterday if im not wrong. i totally forgot all about it actually. but luckily, it cross my mind as soon as i was thinking of a topic to blog about. LOL. wanna know what happened yesterday? hehe. it was around 7am in the morning. i was still in lalaland. but not for long. something made me woke up with my eyes wide open. I PEE ON MY PANTS! hahaha. it was shocking! but cool! and i was not wearing my underwear! haha. eh sialah. dah lame siol tak kencing malam. shocking siak. k tu je aku nak share pasal smlm. the end.

okay specially for Danish, Nizwan and Hashas, my runescape combat level dah 80 lah okay. hahaha! bile krg nak overtake aku nie? xD

summary of today. SORRY LAH OKAY. no idea what to blog about so i'll just make it short. haha. gave school a marvellous skipping rope today. hahaha! yup. i skipped the whole lesson of today except for the night class. me and Zack planned to attend the night class only but guess what? night class, CANCELLED. babi pig pork tol ah. waste my time je dtg skola. bile part aku nak blaja, class cancelled. nie ah skola. tak gune. mintak kene air strike siak. hahaha. so yeahh. i actually spend most of my time today with Eyfa. hehe. thankyouu bby for your time. ily (:

hug hug best best. hehe (: